Someone told me that the only person that can make you happy is yourself
Well I obviously must be doing something completely wrong
The beginning of this yr was good somewhere along the way I lost it all
I feel as though I have no friends, no one that cares about me, I get panic attacks, I always end up crying or about to cry
I don't even know where to begin to make this better, a new year
a year where hopefully everyone doesnt forget my birthday, i lost friends and people i care about.

I am glad that I said yes, then to have said nothing at all.

I try and think on the bright side;
That I have made it another day without.
But at the same time I think;
That it is so much harder to look back.
I hold on tightly to the things, people, and places that keep me from ripping at the seams.
Maybe I need to pack a change of chothes and it's time to move on, maybe a vacation for awhile.

I took a chance, on something;
and got something more than I expected.
We have the best conversations, and take forever to say goodbye.
It is something that I am glad I got myself into, finally I think I am doing something right?

three weeks and counting..

Is there a hole in your heart
Or am i mistaken 
I can see your capillary veins
You be the patient i'll be the surgeon
Just like 1st grade on the playground all day

Soon enough you'll hear the black top calling for you
After that there is not much else you can do..